how did i end up in manipal part 2

salam. so a swift update after last night's post sebab kalau biar lama2 nanti tak terupdate pulak. :) for those of you who read the 1st part, so probably you all are aware that i left it right after i went back home for iftar on monday 7th of sept. it was a pretty long day, (of course its a long day, pusing2 kl bagai in the end no progress in visa, checkup, borang2 mara & all plus someone managed to cry like a little boy :( ). and so i went home (usu's home) after maghrib prayer that day. back at usu's home that time, we have usu's family (of course since its her home :p) and both nek usu & nek anjang (not sure what you all call yours, but these are my grandmothers sibling - just for info) since both of them are going to celebrate raya along with usu at pilah later.

tuesday

i woke up this day with a main aim, to get my visa done, probably get a medical checkup done and post all those mara docs back to my parents at sibu since its the only way to get it filled up. mara gave us (me and yana) till friday to get those documents settled and all. so that morning, usu sent me to jalan duta for visa purposes. there i met yana and after that follow her paksu & ibu afterwards. so nothing much or no peculiar events at indian embassy. and then i dont really recall much on what happened on this day, (probably because it is stressful rather than emotional?) so nothing much to tell i guess. just posting my documents and stuffs at poslaju, hoping that it will be sent immediately (i sent it really2 early like 8am something?). because theoretically the earliest it would reach my parents is the next day, and then blablablabla with getting signatures, penjamin, setem hasil and so on would take a day to do) the next thing i know that day is yes, there goes an empty seat in an airasia flight back to kuching (because that time kuching route is the cheapest option rather than a direct flight to sibu). sobs. and i got a call from mak, they will be here (in kl) soon, most likely on thursday or friday. so there you have it. not going to sibu, leaving without knowing that i'll be leaving my siblings for india. T_T that time swine flu is still a hot issue in malaysia, so aisya is not following my parents along to kl for her own good also, quite sad about that. because she's my youngest and only sister, and yes, i'm fully aware that i was not quite there for her most of the time. just few months only during holidays, she's just about 3 months old by that time. T_T more tears on this. huhu. balik2 tengok adik dh tau jalan. u missed all the milestones of the important girl in your life.

aisya 3 months old

aisya 1st step (i was already in manipal at this time, but still, sobs T_T)

wednesday and so on

sorry i cant quite recall the exact timeline for these upcoming events, but i'll try to be specific and i'll make sure it's in order. :p no flashbacks or whatsoever. so another day, wednesday, i was told that i can collect my visa later about 4pm on that day. ok. do you think i will have a day rest on that day? no you are wrong! FYI, throughout the whole week, each and every single day i went to kl not for fun, but always for a purpose. orang cakap kalau nak achieve something you need to sacrifice something in return. ok ada flashback sikit, sorry because didn't thought of it during the 1st post.

remember all those crying and all at bank negara station & kl sentral? seriously, what i had in my mind is the thought of just getting back to sibu, and not going to india. yes, i thought about that. dalam hati memang x nak langsung fly dah. biarlah kalau postpone pun postpone la till february. ya Allah entah apa yang aku fikir time tu. tapi bila dh emotional, that will seriously impair your rational ability to judge things. but well, Allah x suka hambanya give up, before the real battle started. memang dalam hati time tu nak je pergi kat mara, tolak offer and probably end up in regret for doing that. -.- sampaikan terfikir nak mintak tukar ke CUCMS or IMU for feb intake. sampai macam tu sekali. huhu.

so back to the story, while waiting for 4pm till i get my visa, usu pun kebetulan off that day (both usu jiji & usu yah kerja as polis) so usu took me for medical checkup. kalau dh klinik2 biasa x dpt cepat, apa lagi, pusat perubatan la jawabnya. another for ringgits is forked out for me. -.- menghabiskan duit mak bapak la keje aku. huhu. i got my medical checkup at pusat perubatan damai, area2 keramat if i'm not mistaken and spend about rm200 on that. huhu. so as usual, as any medical checkup does, blood withdrawn, urine sample blablabla la. whats interesting here it the nurse which is responsible for my checkup that time. she was an indian (which at 1st i thought malaysian indian), real indian i mean. from india! how do i know that? so time draw blood, she asked, for what purpose buat checkup ni? so i responded, nak masuk university. then she asked some more, which university, dekat mana, course apa? so aku jawab je la, manipal university, ambik medic. there i saw her face changed, semacam seronok/syok sendiri, and then she was like, manipal university? india ke? karnataka? i was like ok.....so that is basically my first encounter with the people who we knew now is "tempe". right back at our backyard, malaysia i met with a tempe. -.- excited gila nurse tu time tu, tanya this and that but that time, what i know about india is just manipal university. :p i didnt even know that karnataka is a state till i get here.

so that evening, i took my visa at dataran merdeka area (not sure where it is since i already forgot it) and basically thats the end of my day. mak & ayah had their flight confirmed for kl on this coming thursday. the next day, my parents arrive at kl, along with all my stuffs packed up already for fly. huhu. trust me, those weeks are when most of my tears are spent. tgok beg pakaian yg dh siap berkemas, rasa nk nangis. call mak nk update/discuss pasal fly, rasa nak nangis. memang moral sangat2 down by that time. so after picking up my parents at kl sentral, we went straight for low yat, since my father wanted to settle on easy matters 1st (in this case looking for a laptop). so there we go, to lowyat and i bought this laptop which im using right now, about rm2300. what hurts me the most is that, i got to know that my parents had to borrow cash so that i could get a laptop. sobsssss. T_T so recall back, ringgits spent on me for tickets for btn, tickets for MMMC & mara (4 flights in total), then my medical checkup, and now laptop. sobsssss. T_T thats why you must, must appreciate what your parents has done for you. itu baru dari segi duit. just imagine how my parents were when they knew i need to leave malaysia ASAP. spend some more money for their own tickets to get to kl, so in total with my tickets, they already spend a lot of money for 8 flight tickets (another 4 is my parent's to & fro ticket). to make things worse, dah nak raya kot. dah nak raya and you're spending money like tap water, borrowing some more from people. dalam hati aku, ya Allah, kalau ini lah yg Engkau tetapkan untuk aku, biarlah ia berbaloi & worth it.

i could just imagine how hectic it was for my parents back at home bila dh dapat semua documents mara that i posted earlier. huhu. and they had just 1 day to do that. carik penjamin, pegi mahkamah & all, sain sana sain sini. gosh i was a trouble for them. tapi itulah kasih ibu bapa. sobsss. they will do anything for the sake of their children. huhu. T____T

and so after we got the laptop, and its almost iftar already that day, so we decided to buka puasa at masjid jamek before getting home. that time, masa ambil wudhu, ya Allah, sungguh aku rasa sangat2 bersalah sebab menyusahkan mak & ayah. if only i passed my a-level, if only i didn't screwed up that time, sure aku x menyusahkan mak ayah aku sampai macam ni sekali. at least kalau pass, they all would be more prepared that i will leave. not in this kind of way. memang sungguh2 aku menangis dalam solat that maghrib, sebab memang rasa berat sangat dugaan time tu. tgok parents datang all the way after flight, bukan terus rehat kat rumah. terus pergi jalan sana sini settlekan apa yang boleh untuk aku fly. T_T besar pengorbanan mereka. i can just feel that i took hak adik2, for all the money my parents spent on me, which probably should go for their raya expenditures and all. even to my surprise, pak ni, guru agama ayah aku, gave rm300 to my father, to help us. for a guru agama, which only gets money from teaching and mengubat orang, i got to thank him for that. i owe that to him. my family is not that wealthy either, sekadar average, but to spend huge amount of money in a short space of time, is a big big burden for us.

memang time jemaah maghrib dekat jamek aku sengaja sembahyang jauh sikit from my father, because i didn't want him to see me crying & all. probably that is the same case for both of them. huhu.

i think i need to stop writing for now. after this is just some silly mara issues, karenah birokrasi la kut, so malas nak update on that, i'll just skip right away to last few days before fly instead. which i spent invaluably with my parents. that's it for now. will update soon. sobsssss. T_T